First week of school, the breakdown.

Second day:

Went well, too! Still pretty shy to come up to anyone or play with anyone nor any toy. But she's getting a bit comfortable in the room, knows where to wash hands, where to sit for meal times, she is okay playing alone by herself. I know she peeks from the side of her eyes and looks at certain toys or kids but just isn't that ready yet to mingle with them. 

When I picked her up I noticed her pants where wet. She said she peed a little because she was shy to ask but then told Mr. Clay she needed to potty. The bathroom she told me didn't have any bath tissues so she couldn't wipe. 

She spilled some beans saying Duke trapped someone in the bathroom. And then over lunch Emma's brother said kiwid instead of kiwi, which made them laugh. She said she tried her first kiwi and it was good! She actually just tasted the juice and maybe it was sweet so she liked it. 

Day 3, Friday, September 10 2021. D-day.

Woke up early, had milk, talking with lolo and lola, got ready for school, singin in the car on the waynto school, when we were by the corridors, she just said she doesn't want to go to class. She frowned and started sobbing and was clinging to mommy. I reassured her it was okay but it wasn't enough. She was just sobbing, would stop and then cry again. My heart was breaking as well for her. Teachers were trying to help and offered her different things but nothing worked. She just wants to go home. As more people helped I think she got more pressured or afraid. When it was just us, I asked her why she didn't want to go to class and she said she was too shy. The director said another type of drop off would be for the parent to join in the room for a while until the child gets a bit comfortable. I focused on that, as long as she knows that mommy is with her, maybe she would be calmer and be more okay. So I said if she wants mama to carry her to the classroom and I got her to say yes. So I carried her and made her sit on the chair. I kept wiping her nose and I was checking if she will still cling to me if I walk to where her bag is. But she was okay. Ms Angela said they are going to start soon and needed everyone at the circle time area. She started counting down from 5. I told Camilla I will walk her to the area and she could sit beside Ms. Angela. Our girl agreed and I held her hands and walked her to their circle time area. I saw she was okay so I didn't say my byebye and just walked out. She didn't ran to the door, which was a good sign so I left her there at around 8:50am. 

It must have been really hard for her that morning but she was fine the whole time after. I felt really relieved. 

Part of it as I think about it could be what I said to her about playing with any toys there if she wants. That could have pressured her too much since I kept repeating it to her, with the intention and hope that she would be more comfortable this time in her classroom. I told Martin that it could be that why she just suddenly got so shy or pressured a few minutes before we reached her classroom. I am so sorry ate. Mommy will be more sensitive and careful next time. I hope you still get to enjoy your class, and get more comfortable your own time.